Two babies were born into our family last week. Their arrivals were sandwiched in between a due date that came and went. That would be my first due date.
I hesitantly looked at the pictures that were e-mailed and it pained me to see a happy momma with her snuggly baby boy. It only made me realize more just what I lost on November 11, 2009. I lost not only the chance to carry my baby, but the chance to meet him and take lots of pictures of he and I. Together.
Some of had said to me. “Well it’s a good thing you didn’t already have children because then you would know exactly what you lost.”
Aside from the fact that this is an ignorant thing to say to any woman who has lost a baby, this is an all-together completely untrue thing to say.
Believe me, I do not need to have a child at home to know that I have lost two amazing gifts; two beautiful chances; two sweet what could-have-beens.
The agony I continue to feel on a daily basis tells me this.